stagnate

"i don't believe one grows older. i think what happens early on in life is that at a certain age one stands still and stagnates." ts eliot

this is how i'm feeling today and have been lately. is this all my life is about? i always thought i would be miss independent with my own money, doing what i love, being creative. instead, i am what my mother taught me to be. a housewife. dependent on a man. not that there's anything wrong with it and i love being home taking care of my kids but there's just so much energy that i have in my heart that laundry, dishes, coming up with meal plans is not touching. the flip side of this is that i haven't found my niche' in life yet. i like a little bit of everything but i cant seem to find my talent in one area. i feel like i'm stuck in the middle of the fork and don't know what direction to take. left or right. i wish someone would push me in the right direction or maybe just in any direction.