january 2009
as i sit here waiting for my oldest to get home, just hoping and praying and wishing that he's not doing anything stupid, i feel a huge pain of guilt. i went into ham's room to watch a movie since he has the only cable box upstairs. i picked 17 again. my sweet little kaylee comes in and starts making all this ruckus and starts blabbering away when i get tired of hearing it that i yell at her. i yelled for her to get out of the room and to be quiet. after the movie, i find her sleeping on the couch all sweet and innocent. it was just a movie. i am a bad mom.
oh you are not a bad mom.. but you know what? i find consolation that i am not the only one who sometimes does that to her daughter. it does not make it right but it just happens sometimes. as long as we recognize and improve ourselves, that's all we can do with parenting. amelia's been asking me for food every hour today and it drove me nuts.
ReplyDeleteOh this picture's a winner! She is so adorable! I second Jisoo. I mean.. there are only so many hours in a day.. and how many of that is dedicated to us? There comes a breaking point when you just need that time for yourself. I've been there.. I did get cranky yesterday trying to do the dishes, dealing with a nasty cold and having my kid telling me what she wanted for the umpteenth time. I just shooed her away and then had to tell her that mommy's doing the dishes and not listening to her right now. Really, there are other things that need to get done! I felt bad but she was upstairs on the sofa watching tv waiting for me. lol.
ReplyDeleteYou need to tell everyone in your family that there are some days or hours in a day when it's YOUR time. I say that and all my mom friends say this but.. how many of us actually take the time to have a "ME" time? These things happen K! But c'mon, you know as well as we do that you love your kids and they know it too! : )