winners & losers

THE WINNERS! (tyler, ham, tommy + arron) THE LOSERS! (mike, tad, erron + kevin)

1. the fellahs after their paint balling game.

2. ham is better. i'm letting him have today off from school for recovery. just to make sure its all out of his system.

3. i made him filet migon with bacon, creamy parmesan risotto, mashed potatoes, salad and his favorite jello cake on his birthday but he didn't get to enjoy any of it. i did save him a plate which he ate last night.

4. slowly getting back to routine. i said slowly...still woke up at 8:30 this morning. all the decorations are down and put away. the house looks naked and bigger.

5. finally got to feel what most parents go through with little kids close in age. while ham was sick they both needed/wanted my attention. ham wanted me to stay with him and rub his back like the old days and kaylee, well she just wanted her mama. (good thing this was sunday evening, mike was home to play with kaylee till bedtime- she likes to fall asleep with me beside her)

6. it was nice to be needed by ham again and wish it would happen more often. i asked him if he ever thought about his dad. he said sometimes. i wonder how his dad could just not want anything to do with him. it breaks my heart in so many ways. and it makes me really angry too!

7. his dad is pure german and thats where he's been living since ham was about 7 years old. i think they have phones and stamps in germany...

8. ok enough on that. i get teary eyed thinking about it.

9. thinking of hitting the big mall today to return ham's clothes now that most people are back to work.

10. i had a big salad for dinner last night, does that cancel out the two chocolate chip cookies i ate earlier?? {trying to balance the good and the bad}